Shadowgate

kellan · Joined: 27 Oct 2013 Posts: 39

Hey Guys,

It has been a while since I posted. I haven't felt the need to be my normal vocal self. This past week has been pretty rough for me, I have been having chest pains and had to have a EKG, my doctor believes its a medication and small car incident, nothing to worry about, hopefully anyway. It has lead me to reflect on my 20 years plus here at SG.

I've had some great times here, but of late I find myself more filled with bitterness and hate for the place, the rp, and to quite frank the path that it is going. I try to stay positive, but it just hard. In saying all that, I want to apologize to anyone whether that be imm or player that I've vocally beat down with my snobbier over the years. I have a high expectation and believe if you're going to invest as much time as I have to SG it should be with a RP minded expectation. Well, its time I face the truth, the mud changed and it might not fit me anymore. That isn't bad or good, it is just change like Akadi will do Razz

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I don't know if you guys will see much of me in the coming months or years. I've been rattled by just having hit my early 30s and struggling to keep weight off along with now this stupid problem. Plus I'm pretty big traveler and have finally found a pretty solid social life outside of SG that isn't just drinking and chasing women at bars, wow, did too much of that during my twenties, surprised my liver hasn't rebelled.

I'm leaving for this extended break or quitting, we will see, though won't count on the latter. Here are some things I believe are super important to make SG the best mud it can be. They aren't pieces of code, but more like a charge for the mud that I believe makes it special.

1. SG is one of the most amazing places to build a story, don't forget it is our niche.
2. Rules and Structure don't mean we are unfriendly, it means we hold a standard and wish to develop a story within the confines of said structure.
3. SG for too long as been Player vs Imm and Imm vs player, the best change of late has been the efforts with trying to build a community.
4. You can't fix SG through code. Sg will thrive when the world can be altered and fixed by avatars, by immortals and by players working together to create realm shaking stories or those small stories that only two players get.

I'm sure I'll pop back in someday or something, but I don't expect that to be soon. I don't know if I'll ever be a regular again as I can't find a character class, concept or my love for grinding/exploration any longer. It all feels like a gigantic waste of time to me, but I consider you all friends though I may not know all of you. You've helped me not feel alone when moving to new areas IRL, or being unemployed, you gave me a way to escape my RL and now I don't find that escape is needed. For that I thank all of you for your time, your energy, your heated debates and your patience in dealing with a hot head like me Razz

and most importantly your allowance to enter your imagination, its been one hell of a fucking ride.

See you on the flip side,
Alzar

PS: Saide don't eat the food off the ground, it isn't good for you!

Aelaj · Joined: 06 Jan 2017 Posts: 4 Location: Tabor

Ok. Bye. o/

Gia · Joined: 03 Feb 2017 Posts: 58

I'm sorry to see you go, yet happy to hear you don't need us Smile

Thank you for the fun and the fear and the extra dose of craziness you brought to a certain bardess in particular. I hope you work out your health problems and wish you all the best in your social life and otherwise. Take care Smile

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Verbannon · Joined: 30 Sep 2013 Posts: 398

bye. I hope you find happiness and satisfaction.
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